Whoa, I've been going to people's house CNY-ing alot till mummy doesn't want to let me go out le .___. NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~ Going to Pei Sii's house, I gambled for the very first time .___. God, I feel godly ROFLMAO.

Work today is so stressful, but it was a good challenge, except for my habit of being forgetful. SJ thought I didn't have the heart to work, but she's kinda right. I really didn't have the heart to work. It's because of my still-immature-and-childish attitude of mine where I keep using FB and looking at 9gag  photos when I'm supposed to be working. The other thing was because my Excel keeps on hanging and I had to re-do the whole bloody thing all over again. I'm sorry, SJ. Really, I am. :/ You don't know how bad that hurts me when you wrote that as your status. Maybe you'll say that's not for me, but to me, I think it is.

I'm sorry to say this, but you don't fully understood me, SJ. You know I'm a forgetful person, yet you think the work just now was just a joke to me, when it's not. I really forgot about it, but you think I lied or something. Nevermind. I don't want to know if you will hate me, or you won't forgive me or such shit, but I know I won't hate you or anything. Not ever. I might, but just for a little while and the rest will all just disappear because I know I'm always at fault and I'm always wrong. I'm also sorry that I caused you to fail your Law Test. Maybe I should go into an accident and lose my license to repay your failure for your law test. But I'm too chicken to do that. Sorry.

Everything I do is always and forever will be wrong. The only right thing I ever did.. was nothing. I'm not smart, I'm not pretty, I'm not slim. I'm nothing. I also agreed with my mother that I'm a useless little shit. You also knew I didn't want to work there, SJ. Now to mention it, so do you. I know we both didn't really want to leave there because of our colleagues, right? Or maybe not. But to me, it is.

Really. I don't know what you think of me as, SJ. Maybe I'm just a dumb old assistant who always get things wrong. Maybe I'm just a stupid friend who always cause you trouble. And now I don't know how to face you in the future because of what you think of me as. I'm sorry, SJ. I'm really sorry. I don't dare to seek forgiveness from you or anything, I just hoped you'd know me better. I know you know me better.

-lollipopkat signed off. Actually heartbroken&devastated.

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